As I write this, my head hurts. That’s because I’m tired, but sometimes my head hurts because I can’t think, and sometimes it hurts because I think too much. Somewhere along the lines, I need to get these thoughts out of my system so I can think clearly again. I do this by writing them down. It might not improve my memory, but it certainly improves my mood and my sense of having achieved something.
If you read my post entitled Night Thoughts, you’ll have read some of the thoughts I wrote down on a particularly sleepless night. Since that night I’ve been writing similar thoughts each day that I write my diary. They aren’t night thoughts, they are quiet, reflective thoughts, written mostly in the early evening, or occasionally in the morning.
My diary entry takes up one page, and my thoughts go on the opposite page. They are written in capital letters. They aren’t edited. They come out the end of my pen straight from my mind. They usually reflect the thoughts, feelings, worries of the day or the time of day I write them.
The reason I’m highlighting this new writing activity is because it’s a kind of therapy I’ve wanted to try for a long time, but never got round to. I have a lot of thanks to give to that one sleepless night for making me realise what thoughts were inside me, and how much it helped me to write them and to read them back.
It means I’ve written in my diary more, because I only write the thoughts if there is a diary entry to accompany them. It also means I’m keeping track of the things I’m thinking of, and I’m not dwelling on them, I’m getting them out and leaving them be.
So far, I have written 180 individual thoughts. For me, that’s an achievement. I’m not good at sticking to things, but I’ve stuck to this because of how much it helps me. I’m also determined to compile them together so that I can have them all in one place to read back, as a sort of second diary.
Do any of you do anything similar?